Thursday, January 15, 2009

I'll Be Missing You.....

My Mommy Cat has gone to heaven. She left yesterday...... She went peacefully and painlessly. My mom was just about to leave the hospice to come home to CT to get some clothes and things. She said "bye, Mommy, I'm going home to get some clothes, I'll see you tomorrow, I love you". Then she stopped breathing......I'm going to speak at her services no matter how hard it'll be. She always liked to hear me read things at our family reunions so I'm going to try my best to do it. My mother is holding up well. I miss her, she's been staying in NYC in my grandmas apartment. I know she's more comfortable in NY and the whole family is there. She has an entourage & a posse. I'm being selfish b/c I want my Mommy to come home! I won't tell her that though, I'm not going to stress her out w/ my Mommy separation anxiety. My dad is just sitting around doing random things like vaccumming and buying every Lean Cuisine meal at Stop & Shop! The freezer is insane. If I eat one more Lean Cuisine, I'll rip my weave out!!! Blah... I guess I can't survive on that stuff for 3 meals a day.... THere's not really any food in here b/c everything happened on Saturday which is the day my mom goes shopping for the week. There's no "stuff" to cook with, and honestly I don't really feel like cooking. Dad's fine with his Lean Cuisines. I saw "Bride Wars" last night, I'll post a review later. I had to get out the house so I figured I'd go to the movies.
My friend "C" went shopping with me today to get clothes for the service. I have nothing "nice" to wear, and I wanted to find something nice. "C" came with me for support and to make sure that the fit was good and I picked out pieces that matched. Funeral shopping is not fun. You can't find anything when your looking for it!!! I think there should be a store called Funeral Couture or During This Difficult Time Wear!! Somewhere where you can walk in an find nice appropriate clothes in one place! Sad people don't have time to be running all over the place trying to find stuff. I ended up getting a gray skirt and a black sweater from Kohl's.

"C" found it on the clearance rack. She's such a patient rack searcher, I have no patience for rack shopping. I need things in my face. I don't have the best "hunting skills"It's by CHAPS. Originally $79.50 but it was 70% off so it was only $23.50

Sweater, nothing too special it's 3/4 sleeve which is good b/c I'm always hot...
AB Studio $48.00 but it was on sale for $27.99. I also got some sweater tights for $5.00 (50% off).Don't know what shoes I'm going to wear yet. I have a lot of shoes and I narrowed it down to those two. Both are comfy heels.

I don't know why I'm posting "funeral service" outfits..... I'm just trying to keep myself busy and distracted.... Maybe I am a weirdo......
Oh my Financial Aid is pending.... My grades were posted last night but they show "CR" which means credit received, the letter grades aren't showing yet.... If this doesn't get resolved by tomorrow I'm screwed. My mom said that I can charge 1/3 of my tution on her "Discovery" Card (that would be the minium I can pay to attended school.... . But that's like $800 & something bucks + plus a "late registration fee", which I shouldn't have to pay b/c I'm not the one who deregistered myself!!! But what if they see that I made 1/3 of a payment and think that I don't deserve Fin Aid. I'm borrowing the money. I don't know..... I hope my classess are still open. I'm going to have to look for backups tonight just in case.
Ok, ladies I'm off to hunt for food and find out if my Mommy is coming home tonight. I need to wash air dry then flat iron my hair, it's wavy with no product in it, I look like some kind of animal. I'll probably be back later..... I have to talk about Bride Wars and my new mascara.......





<- I made that on Photo Impact Pro 13. I'm not too happy with that program. I should of just got Photoshop Elements 7. I thought it would be easier. At least there's books on Photoshop. Oh well, live & learn...



Again, I want to thank everyone for the super sweet comments & e-mails!! They truely have brightened up these gray few past days! I'm trying to write everyone back. Y'all are some of the sweetest ladies!!!! It will take me a little bit to get back at everyone.....

XoXo



5 ♥Say Something♥:

Krystal said...

i just started reading your blog and i want to apologize for your loss. i went through the same situation last year w/ family loss and school so i can feel your frustration. you do come across as a very smart and strong person, so i'm sure everything will work in your favor! :o)

Miss.Fortune said...

first and foremost..how are u feeling? im sorry to hear about ur loss! i will pray for u..whether u know me or not..u are definately n my prayers.

Emeria said...

You know even though it pains and saddens us to have them not physically here..don't you have a sense of relief because you knew she was a great person so she has to be up there looking down at you..thats how i feel about my grandpa

First day of my lolos viewing i wore a grey skirt too..a pencil cut..haha.. ;]

Do mommy cat proud! :]

Makeup Mama said...

Hi Kendall, I just started reading your blog and just wanted to let you know I'm' so sorry for your loss. But I'm glad you have your dad and a good friend close by for support...

Kimberly Tia said...

my dear girl

im so sorry to hear about mama cat, at the rate this world and economy is in girl, she's in a MUCH MUCH Better place. Believe that.

I know you make her proud girl, and even while she may be gone u know she's got her paw on you still.

Stay up and be positive